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Dear Diary, I've got this problem....
Jun. 22nd, 2008
05:05 pm
My chickens are filthy and have shit hanging from their bottoms.
This is obviously because of my bad parenting skills but I can even clan them because their shit dries like cement underneath the heat lamp.
I had a super fun night last night, went to a reggae show in petite, Andru Branch(M-AZING) and it was wonderful all the young folk of the small town were out and I danced so much...
Today I baked and then fucking did so much laundry by hand...this is daunting...
However it is summer and I'm half naked three quarters of the time...
I'm sorry and I forgive you.
Jun. 12th, 2008
May. 13th, 2008
08:59 pm
DRINKING OJ IN MY PJ'S
Last night I so wanted to make out with this boy but I thought I should wait, to you know, build some suspense...but now I'm wishing I had just gone for it....
It's like over-worked, over-tired, under-sexed...and it's not good.
GOD GOD. I'm babysitting now and all the kid wants to do is watch TV and I'm bored.
Other news. Greenhouse is pretty much finished and I've decorated, planed everything, and bought all the nessesary things so next step is moving in...on FRIDAY.
God.
Apr. 30th, 2008
08:33 pm
I think I have to go for a walk on the beach.
Me head cannot absorb anymore information right now...like fuck they eat so many different kinds of fish in Italy.
I did some little things today for the school of life mind expansion project 2008...I planted some nice things on the shit field, planted more basil, secured the fireplace, found a man to give me a mattress(awwwwwwww yeeeeaaaaa) and so I assembled a bed, but it's becoming pretty clear to me now that without a kitchen of some sort I will die of starvation, and so that is the next step. I cooked a really marvy meal for noan and then we had pie and Ice cream and this boozy sauce I made.
I'm really confused in general about life, this obviously means that I have too much time to think and so I guess I should do something about that...something other than picking my face and drinking teas, something other than cracking face.
I need a real live stimulating conversation, plus a cig, plus a beach walk.
3...2....1 SYDNEY.
Apr. 21st, 2008
09:46 pm
So everyday something feels different and the plans I keep making are changing and evolving. And Now I feel like I might actually kind of be living in the now because i certainly don't know what I'm doing later, and what happened before is all just too silly to think about.
I think If I were actually to build things I would get attached to everyone of them, I guess I should stick to pies really, they're more like sand castles and no one can live in a sand castle, and if they did they'd be walking around homeless most of the time.
I tried to watch a few movies tonight but they're all too slow. I have not had this kind of manic energy since I don't know when. My moods are at an all time high most of the time at least.
I have to learn to slllllllooooooowwwwwww down...I think I'm tired. Lovely...
Apr. 16th, 2008
02:03 pm
Sometimes days seem too long. Today does. I'm sad for no reason and the sun is shining and almost everything in my life is as it should be.
today three people told me that I will never get married and that I'm hard on men. Three people at different times. I just don't know...I think I'm ok...a homewrecker at worst. But I am nice to boys and I make them cookies and love them and everything right? RIGHT.
OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD.
SMOKE SMOKE SMOKE.
Apr. 12th, 2008
Jan. 31st, 2008
09:23 am
My mom doesn't think she's a nice person...I can relate to that. But It's ok.
Sexy boys are popping up and I may take advantage.
I think I've met one thats my kind. And I want him, in the woods, in the spring. Paul from class says I only like men for their penis' but I disagree, I like a good spoon once in awhile, it aint all about the fork.
You see I've yet to be with one thats my kind, and waiting just wont do,I must persue. And WOW big news in business development land. Yea thats right...I'm scared but thrilled at someday never having to work for anyone but myself. Fuck the man and blah blah.
I miss a few people but mostly I am sad that I'm not playing my uke tonight because someone was hurt.
I feel lucky today, but maybe it's my karma.
Yea I feel lucky.
Mar. 16th, 2007
06:03 pm
Right so...
idontknowwhatthefuck butilikeitstill
iwalkedaloneinpouringrain
iboughtshoesandpedrosteppedonthemwithmud
idancedatkurovatosweetbeats
iwenttoapartywhereeveryonetookofftheirsh
irecordedmusic
iateabeautifulmeal
isawtheonesilove
ispoonedtothethirddegree
idontknowwhatanyofthismeans ithinkimmoreconfusednowthaniwastobeginwi
I STILL LIKE IT
SOMEGUYSAIDTOME...YOUKNOWFISHAREJUSTLIKE
Dec. 7th, 2006
06:02 pm
Winter sleeps and spring rises.
Summer never rests and autumn has drooping eyelids.
And I live a plants life. Whats in a nervous system anyway? Coordination hah. I'd rather be stationary and swaying.
Make me the bee that sweeps down with my electrostatic chanrge and pulls pollen off of the face of a flower. I'm responsable for feeding all of the animals. Make me think of myself after someone else.
Oh and what's in a climax if you can't remember the rising action. And after it's over it's the fall of it all that stays inside of you.
Oct. 18th, 2006
03:17 pm
On Friday the thirteenth I was sitting on a milk crate thinking about the fact that I was half past 19 and my mother was half past late picking me up when a lady bug landed on me.
"Oh hello" I said, "Isn't this appropriate"
Then I started to think lonely mopey thoughts about how if I had another cat it would most likely sooner or later end up under the wheel of a car, and If I had a boyfriend he would probably have his dick all over the internet when another one lands on me.
Aww fuck. I should only be so lucky right?
Right. So I says to him, I says, "What are you trying to prove? I'm just sitting here in my bubble of negativity, what fuck."
So he says back, "Snap outtttaaaaawwwwfffitttt" and slaps me in the face.
I was half thinking bad thoughts when I snapped out of it and started thinging about supper and one flew into my head.
Goodbye.
Oct. 11th, 2006
04:01 pm
I would love to be sitting outide of the dollar store right now drinking apple juice in my pretty little dress, but I wasn't invited to that party.
And so I will sit inside my office staring at the birds drinking doublecocomajumble cofffeeeee in my little business suit.
And I wish I was lying in bed with someone other than my gollywog.
But My job doesn't allow any time for fornication.
God guys I'm late for work again and where is my suit?
Oct. 5th, 2006
08:02 am
No matter how far I walk here, I'm not going to find anyone to save me, lest I look into the mirror and say, "hello in there, hello"
And playing my cards right shouldn't be so easy, but it is. I'm winning now, but based on flukes, and the dealer is still waiting for his turn to catch me on an off day.
Oct. 2nd, 2006
03:34 pm
I was in the Sally Anne and I left my purse sitting on a chair beside me while I was rifling through the purses when I hear this woman screaming "Ok will everyone come to the front of the room?" So I'm all like, "shit somebody's getting caught stealing" So We all go up and the womans holding my purse"
Woman-"I was going to buy this purse, and then I noticed it was heavy and then I opened it and I saw 20$ and thats it."
Me-"awww geeze thanks thats mine"
*she wouldn't give it back and I kept grabbing for it with a passion"
Her-"Now I just want everyone in here to know that this could have been stolen"
Me-"Thanks.."
*I grab it and show her my id with a phony smile"
Her-"So I said to myself, "what would God do, you know?" I did what he would have done."
Me-"Well yea, obviously. I wouldn't take someones purse either, and thats why I thought it was safe here, WITH GOD in the Salvation Army"
Anyway she continued like this for nearly 20 minutes following me around and whatnot. So, if she wasn't Christian she would have taken it? I don't get it mannnnn.
Sep. 28th, 2006
Sep. 18th, 2006
07:51 am
People change, people grow
people roam, BUFFALO.
But it aint fit when you think you own the land.
Sep. 10th, 2006
01:02 pm
If there's one thing that's been consistant in my life it's my love for the vogue optical song.
Also I made chocolate orange souflee's last night. The best thing ever.
annnnd all the sea gulls are party'n without me.
Sep. 2nd, 2006
11:50 am
So I have become addicted to Aricular acupuncture.
It's a totally new experience, and gives me the most spacey incoherent high ever. ALSO it's free, it's almost every day of the week, and it's good for me.
Aug. 26th, 2006
08:02 pm - I want a range life...
Again, again.
Spin, spin, spin until this straw turns to gold.
I am in an overly sedate state.
I've met the most beautiful soles of feet. I've made love on a rooftop in the pouring rain, recorded music with beautiful voices in basement apartments, ran naked down the road in the snow, swam on top of a mountain.
I have lived.
I think I'm finally in the now.
Aug. 8th, 2006
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